“Nothin’s gonna change my world”…say it over and over, sing it, whine it, believe it, but beware for as much as you ingrain this into your being, it cannot be.
Your world WILL change –the bottom will fall out just when you’re least expecting it.
The warmth of the sun will shine, beckoning you forward when you must stay trapped within your walls and then when they release you, cold may set in, lurking around you, eating away from your outer layer to your inner most core.
Open yourself to this change—open to all life has to offer, open to sitting in silence, open to wildly dancing with strangers. Open to the universe, open to the woman sitting on the grate at Queen and University Avenue gasping for warmth from the underground world, open to the wind whistling with mighty strength, gaining speed between downtown high rises, open to the welcoming scent of homemade bread as you enter your home when day has gone and there is only the lonely night left before you. Float above all this for awhile, but know you will come crashing, crushing down, to feel sorrow and pain…sit in it as you would joy, knowing that it too will pass.
It’s as a wave building with all the greatness of life gaining joy and growing in size until it reaches its peak and then comes tumbling down. sometimes with as much joy, getting grounded on the warm sand to once again begin its climb to oblivion.
This is the way of life; of happiness, of sorrow, of loneliness, of sickness, of wonder, of laughter, of terror, of wildness, of awakening.
January 19, 2010
Valerie
